Sunday Sweets

Today was ward conference and the Stake primary took over so I got to got to the combined priesthood/relief society lesson!! It was soooo nice to be part of an adult gospel discussion. It's been a long long time, like more than two years since I've been in a class like that. I'd forgotten what it was like! I mean, listening to speakers is good but it's lovely to have that give and take lesson. Anyway I thought I'd post some of the things that stuck with me from the lesson.
We talked about being self reliant today and we watched a short talk by Elder Hales on the subject. What I liked was how he spoke about the self confidence and esteem that comes from being out of debt. Debt is bondage. Having a big nice home and expensive cars will not make up for the hopelessness that the debt causes. Satan would have us believe that an opulent lifestyle will bring happiness, but the truth is our relationships with our family and friends and Heavenly Father is what brings us real joy. It's not the clothes you wear. It's not the way you do you hair. HAHA! Shout out to Mr. Rogers! Sorry, I sort of went off the subject............ What is so maddening is we know this. We know what brings happiness and yet we still stay in the rat race for more money and nicer stuff! I listened to a talk once on BYU TV and someone did a study that showed that almost across the board of income levels everyone said they would be satisfied with 10% more. If we just had a little more money everything would be great! Guess what? ITS NOT TRUE! The trick is living within our means and being content, knowing you are in control of your finances and not having possible foreclosure over your head. Mathan and I live in a manufactured home with thin walls, made out of cheap material. Its completely inefficient when it comes to heating and cooling, but we own it. In two years time, if all goes well we will be completely free and clear. As much as I want a nice "real" house right now, I love that this house is ours and the land and car are almost ours. We can afford the payments even when Mathan doesn't have as much work as we'd like. I'm excited for when we'll be out of debt and we can chuck all that payment money into savings for my "real house" that Mathan knows how to build so we don't have to pay a contractor. Talk about useful skills! Dang it, Life Is GOOD! And in the end nobody will care what kind of house you lived in or what you did for a living. This life is so short in the eternal perspective! Love the Lord and love your neighbor as yourself. Forgive and you'll be forgiven. The gospel makes everything so simple. I love it!

RAIN!

Wow! It has been raining for four of five days! Monsoons in May! It starts and stops but is really steady sometimes, not just wimpy sprinkles. The garden is so wet I don't dare go out there and work because I'd leave big squishy footprints everywhere. Mathan got our front fence up yesterday and now we just need some mending of the old fence and one more little run of new fence. Hurrah for keeping the kids in and the cows out!

May cracks us up. She was wearing a dress with a puffy skirt today and she told Mathan, "The ballet needs to go potty." She does this all the time but sometimes she's "the princess" or "the monster," whatever she feels like at the time. Lately she's been saying "okay I'm the Mama and you're May Tenney." I think she knows that Mama gets the last word and she wants the power. It must be so frustrating for her to be running into boundaries and rules all the time.

Ellen is so cute and hugable. She is starting to string a few words together at a time. She likes to say "butter honey" and "Tigger Pooh" and "zebra horsey." Both of them are just cute little smarties. They get it from their Dad.

Have you ever noticed?

Have you ever thought about how memories and dreams for the future are so ideal? Of course there are bad memories, but the good ones seem so perfect. I guess I edit out all the little annoyances of real life from my good memories. In my imagination everything is perfect too. I love that we live on an empty acre of land and I can dream up different ways to landscape and improve it. In my mind its a paradise. We're slowly (yeah yeah, slowly is an understatement) but surely changing it to match our dream for it, but you know, reality is rarely as good as imagination. C.S. Lewis had a good explanation for this. I think it's in "Mere Christianity." He used the analogy of a vacation. You plan it and dream it and anticipate it, but it never lives up to your expectation. He believed that that longing for heaven on earth is really a longing for our actual heavenly home. Our spirit remembers what heaven is like and we are searching for it here on earth and it never really turns up. I take that back, it does turn up but it surprises you and it is only for moments at a time. Like when you two year old covers you with a blanket and says " nigh nigh", or like yesterday when all the nursery kids where holding hands and singing "I am a child of God." That is heaven on earth. I have lots of other examples but I'll keep them to myself. They're a little too heavenly for a blog post.

Amish

Lately I've been reading the Little House on the Prairie books again. I read the whole series back in 4th grade and I forgot how much I liked them! I love how the family is so thrifty and productive and good. I love how simple their life was, and how happy they were. They had two changes of clothes, a table and chairs, a bed, a few dishes and tools, a stove, and that was it. I look at my mountain of laundry and wish it was socially acceptable to have a set of work clothes and a set of sunday clothes and be done! We have so much stuff. We have tons of clothes and dishes and toys and books, not to mention all the things we have to save time and energy. But do all these conveniences and comforts make us happy? I think a good dose of living off the land would do our country good. You know, where you actually have to make everything yourself and be self sufficient. The family in the book work hard for each other. They entertain each other and play together. They know and look after their neighbors. Most of all they are selfless. So many people today are only looking out for themselves, even before their spouse and children. I love how the children are taught to be polite and respectful of their parents and everyone around them. I love how they are active and healthy and know how to work and be persistent

Throw out the tv! Throw out the computer! Buy a cow and chickens! Home school your children! I'm ready to join the Amish and simplify my life!

Okay, now that my rant is done I'll go take advantage of my washer and dryer, hot running water, air conditioning, fridge, store bought everything, car, phone, plumbing, lights, immunity from disease, jeans.....................